Tag Archive: A Course in Miracles

My last post was about feeling stuck.  But at the writing of this post, the waters are swirling, the flood gates are open, waves are crashing and its GO TIME.  So this post is about Catfish, which I’ve almost been obsessed about lately, A Course in Miracles which has come back into my life with a positive vengeance and oddly, animal totems.  Please stay with me.  This is going to be a true stream of consciousness experience.  If you live in a cave and don’t know about Catfish, you can click on the picture below to go straight to the official MTV page.  

CATFISH means a lot of different things to me and the extended people in my current experience – and they know who they are, he he.  Having said that, no, I’ve never Catfished anyone, nor have I been Catfished.  I didn’t have much thought about it, I don’t watch any shows on MTV.  But then Catfish came onto my radar when we started working on our show, and was brought to my attention from the farthest place I would have thought, Kelly, a very logical member of the Traveling Psychic Supper Club told me about it.  Wait.  Kelly told me to watch something on MTV.  This caught my attention.  So I watched it.  And I liked it.  Then I forgot about it, kind of.  I always really liked the human aspect of it, and that Nev had been through it himself, so could relate to the very real emotions those that had been “catfished” were experiencing.  I connected to that, because psychically I have always had the experience of connecting to people – friends, acquaintances and the people I read through stories and personal experience.  

So since the new Catfish season is about to start, it’s been all over MTV again.  I was able to sit down and watch the Catfish movie – which really caught my attention, the ending when two people sit down, face to face, the hurter and the hurt and face each other just raw and exposed – to talk in a place of no defense, no judgment, it just is what it is.  That is powerful.  And that makes me think of the work I’ve done in the past years via A Course in Miracles – which I’ve recently picked up again, in perfect time, again, in relation to Kelly.  This non-coincidence is not lost on me.  🙂

If you are familiar with the Course, you know how amazing it is.  If you aren’t then you should look into it.  Even if it’s just to figure out the connection between the Course and Catfish.  The Course teaches everything is love.  Pain, Anger and Judgment are all just Love, flipped and looked at the wrong way.  That we are all one, so in being all one, no person is separate from each other, or our source, which is also part of the one.  So since we are not separate, how can one person harm or hurt another?  That this existence is just this amazingly precise fabrication – a dream that we have created to see ourselves as separate.  But we’re not.  So that brings me back to Catfish.

So obviously in the show, as in the original movie we are following a story – a profile of a non-existent person has been fabricated to create a relationship that without that fabrication (at least on one side) wouldn’t exist.  A whole relationship – has been fabricated.  It’s a dream that both parties have subscribed to – and have created this whole other existence on.  To both, it’s very real – a story they’ve both subscribed to and fallen into.  This is a tiny variation of this dream state we have collectively fabricated – that separates us all as individuals.  In Catfish the Movie we are viewers, and are able to watch this unfolding which, by all normal means should end in a conflict, a fight, defenses and anger.  But it doesn’t.  It’s amazing.  It ends simply in a desire to understand, and still, through a betrayal, connect.  And in this, the opportunity is presented to see Angela’s side, something that wouldn’t have happened if all the above emotions had had their way.  And when I saw it, her side, as I’m sure others did as well, I could say, “wow” – OK, this person is totally isolated, and in this attempt to reach out, in the most hidden of ways, I get it.  I wouldn’t do it, but I can GET IT.  And you see the whole crew – Nev especially – GET IT.  And those emotions of anger – you can see them turn.  I think that’s pretty amazing.  And it’s a start.  It’s a start of something big, and a wave, a chance to see someone not as canniving, manipulative or a user, but as vulnerable, afraid and seeing themselves as not good enough.  In that, forgiveness, and a human connection is made.  I get it.  And I like it.  The concept is presented as entertaining, which is the hook, but the underlying story of shared forgiveness and connection is not lost.  At all.  It is a seed that is planted, that in some places will grow.  This is something I (We) hope to create with our own show – not in the way like Catfish, but seeing it present there shows me we can – Through a Psychic Connection, shared through a story.  

So when I was looking up different stuff about Catfish – I came across this on http://www.starstuffs.com/animal_totems/dictionary_of_wateranimals.html– which perfectly describes where I am right now.   And it does a pretty good job of describing what Catfish the show is creating too.  Pretty Amazing. 


Transformation of the spirit, time to discard what is not needed any more, teaches to have a greater sensitivity in communication. Listen and feel to what is going on around you. Catfish will teach discernment with heightened senses along with sharpening intuitions and feelings. Fish in general show how to swim the currents of life, use of intuition to navigate effectively, aids in attuning to the world of emotions, the un/subconscious and other-worlds, heightened senses including visions, dreams and related psychic abilities. Do you currently feel stuck? The river says it is time flow. Fish can show how to ride the tide to new adventures.

HELL YEA!!  My whirlpool is spinning and the waters are rushing.  And I am ready.  The River says it’s time to flow.  I’m ready to ride the tide to new adventures, with the perfect pieces and people around me.  

I’m with the River, I Say – It’s GO TIME. 






I’ll talk about last nights dinner shortly, but have something else that must be addressed first.  BUT I will say the dinner was excellent, exactly what it needed to be and everyone that was there was perfect.

I’m going through a massive overhaul right now and wonder if anyone else is as well.  Here’s what’s going on with me.  I’ve been living my life split, keeping one side of it separate from the other.  I’m not going to do that anymore.  I’ve had some things hit me over the head lately, opportunities for growth that cannot be denied.  When I say “hit over the head” I mean I’ve experienced some discomfort which lead to reflection.  And this is the conclusion I have come to.

I am many things.  I am not going to fit into everyone’s box of what they want me to be.  Or what they think I should be because of what I do.  I do what I do because it’s my life purpose.  I work with children because I am gifted at working with children.  I work with individuals to help them discover who they are because I am gifted at that.  I am highly intuitive and clairvoyant.  I am able to connect with others so deeply because of it.  I am not ashamed of this or hide it because other people may not understand it or be afraid of it.  I can’t control what other people think or feel about me.  I can only be who I am.  If anyone wants to judge that, that is for them, not for me.

The Light of God is in me and I am in the Light of God.  Where God is no darkness can reside.  Some people need God to be a certain thing, and I’m ok with that.  Everyone experiences God differently and I’m ok with that too.  God is a part of everything I do.  People call God different things – Spirit, God, Energy, The Universe.  God is LOVE.  If you are moving towards Love you are moving towards GOD.  If you are living in LOVE you are living in LIGHT.

So many experiences like I said  have led me to “come out” (thank you Dina for mentioning that last night) and say this is who I am.  And actually by coming out I am actually coming IN.  Coming into Light out of a shadow I have chosen to place on myself because of what other people may think of me.  I am coming into who I am.  THIS is who I am.  If you choose to know me for all that I am and walk with me, I welcome you, and I see the light in you.  If you don’t that’s ok too.  I STILL see the light in you.  But I will not be judged by a label, or of the color of my skin, or because I don’t fit into what you want me to be, because this is my        I AM.  There are a few people that may think this post is written for or about them, and it isn’t.  Not in judgement or combatively at least.  It is written from a place of freedom and happiness that I hope anyone reading this shares.  Like I said, I’m not here to judge or be judged.  I am here to do my work and be who I am.  Thank you to anyone who has handed me the opportunity to better define what that is.  NAMASTE.

Hello All, I hope that everyone is having a wonderful saturday.  I’m going to get right to it.  I just finished reading an AMAZING book, which is part of my journey, and now is part of yours.  I want to bring you to the place I am now, starting as close as I can from the beginning.

I started writing then erased everything I had down.  The beginning is too far back, so I’ll start again.

A few years ago I was at half price books, one of my favorite bookstores, and a book caught my attention – The Celestine Prophecy.  You can see an interesting article on the basis of the book here:http://deoxy.org/9insight.htm – written by James Redfield, the author.

I didn’t know anything about it, but bought it and put it on the shelf.  For about 3 years.  One day it caught my attention, and I pulled it down and read it.  It was incredible, but touched on some things it was hard for me to get my head around, but I read on.  I would like to say this is a novel, but if you can see the ideas that are presented throughout it, that’s really the point, to “read between the lines”.  It was very much in line with another book I study, which has become an amazing part of my life, A Course in Miracles

ACIM is a phenomenal book which I attended a study group for “religiously” for a while, even though the book has nothing to do with religion.  It’s simply about LOVE and FEAR and Illusion.  If  you read this blog, you probably know of it.  If not, you should definitely check it out.  A study group is a great way to get your head around it.  Actually, if you are located in far north Austin, all the way up to Liberty Hill I’m starting a group here, please contact me.  I invite you to join it.   Or I invite you to attend the next Traveling Psychic Supper Club event.  Or just keep reading the blog.

Also, ACIM isn’t just a book, it’s more like a way of life.  For me at least.  Some people find it too difficult to understand, or dislike or even hate it because it’s outside of a certain realm of thought.  As for me, it answered so many questions I had and helped me to understand my own purpose, outside of the “human” way of thinking, which is go to work, make money, have things.  None of that has ever spoken to me, and ACIM helped me to understand why.

So because I had knowledge of ACIM I was able to grasp the underlying story of  Celestine Prophecy.  I got it, and it was good.  It enhanced my desire for spiritual growth, and was a pretty good story to boot.  But most importantly, I think it planted a seed in my mind that would allow me to be open to the NEXT story I needed to read, it prepped me by opening my mind a bit more.

Then another day recently I was at Half Price again, to get my daughter’s copy of Lord of the Flies – required summer reading…yuck.  I hit the metaphysical section as always, nothing really jumped out at me, then I saw a huge clearance section in the back, so I went to look around.  As I was in the back, and I hadn’t been in the store more than 30 minutes, a MASSIVE clap of thunder startled me.  I turned around and saw it was POURING outside.  Torrentially.  I wasn’t going anywhere for a while.  So I went back over to the metaphysics section and sat down to have a look at the books I had picked up.  When I was sitting on the floor something told me to look up.  I looked up at a book that caught my eye, so I stood up to check it out.  After I had a look, I sat down on the floor again, in the spot right under the book I had been drawn to.  Then my eyes settled on ANOTHER book named The Barn Dance.  I picked it up and had a look.  The copy I picked up was signed.  There were three copies, they were all signed.  I thought that was weird, they were all gifts to three different people, from 3 different people.  So I picked up the book next to them, also by James F. Twyman to see if it was signed as well.  It wasn’t, but this was the book I was meant to find.  After all of that.  The storm that kept me there.  Seeing the other book, then sitting down underneath it, so I would see the other original book that drew my attention.  This is how it happens.  This is how I found what I was looking for.  And I wasn’t even looking for it at all, I had already decided on my purchases for that day.  I wasn’t looking for it.  It was looking for me.  The book is called EMISSARY OF LIGHT.

And if you are reading this, it is looking for you too.  In fact on the back cover a quote by the writer of CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD actually says that – “Your Soul has placed your hands upon this book”   It doesn’t get much clearer than thatFind it and read it as soon as you can.  This book is written as a novel as well, but if you get the newer (10th anniversary edition) version it has a forward written by the author about why it was written as a novel, but it’s based on his own actual experience.

I am an EMISSARY, although I’ve always considered myself more of a TRANSMITTER – of ideas, of information, helping connect people who are meant to be connected.  And I’ve also talked before about being a KEEPER.  Not because I’m important or special, but because it’s what I am  supposed to do.  I accept it and I do it.  So now I hope you will accept the idea that I present to you as well.  You are an EMISSARY.  BE an EMISSARY.  Pass this on to as many as you can, they are EMISSARIES too.  If you are a blogger, please reblog.  If you are simply a reader, please accept my invitation to join us and accept then pass on what is simply…peace.  This is the real way things are meant to be.  I am not asking to reblog to up my stats – I’m not interested in that – but to get this information out there – so others can wake up and live in LOVE, and step away from FEAR.  I am not here to impress you with ME, I am here to impress you with YOU.  You are an EMISSARY.  BE AN EMISSARY.  Take this next step into your souls evolution, it is not only your evolution, but an evolution that involves us all.  If you do accept this invitation, I would love to hear back from you on your thoughts and feelings about this book.  Not for me, but for others.  Thank you for being a part of my journey, and for allowing me to be a part of yours.  NAMASTE.

Here are some links to the author’s pages, or pages dedicated to the ideas from the books.




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