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Say Anything is one of the greatest movies of all time.

I’ve had the amazing experience lately of being able to relive the 80’s again, but in a whole new way.  Recently I had the  joy of interviewing my dear old friend and new author Kari Luna on my radio show (here’s the link to that show:http://paramaniaradio.com/On-Demand.php?ondemanddir=Traveling%20Psychic%20Supper%20Club )- she wrote a bad ass book all about the 80’s, mixed tapes and kooky wonderful outfits, which also includes physics, loving friends and a wonderful story.  Her book is called The Theory of Everything.  You should read it.  it’s Awesome.  The 80’s were Awesome!  And we lived it.  The music the clothes, the awkward situations… everything….SO –  I watched Say Anything this morning with my daughter, who is 15.  I just let her watch it, and didn’t add anything.  That’s the way to watch a movie like that, without any extra stuff to think about.  But here’s the stuff I wanted to say:

Actually, I’m not going to tell you the things I wanted to say about the movie or the people in the movie and where they are now…  I’ll see what everyone remembers about the movie, how it made you feel, or what you think of it now, watching it again as an adult or watching it for the first time.  I’d love it if you added a comment about your thoughts on Say Anything…..Either way, watch it.  This is something I got out of it….and was thinking about as I was watching it.

I am lucky.  NO – I am tremendously lucky.  Diane, the main character in the movie has this wonderful relationship with her father, where she can literally say anything.  It made me start thinking about the people in my life, and how I too, can say anything.  I am amazingly grateful for this.  It has to do with dropping fear.  For me, but also for the people around me, not being afraid.  In the past few weeks I’ve had some opportunities to tell someone, and hear back from someone – Anything.  And coming from a place of not being afraid, was the key.  Not being afraid they couldn’t handle it.  Not being afraid it was the wrong thing.  Or would be taken the wrong way.  Just knowing what I was saying was the right thing – the only thing – this person at this time expected to hear from me.  This is tremendously freeing.  To be able to SAY and HEAR ANYTHING.

No, it’s not always been that way.  Who hasn’t been Diane Court, amazingly hopeful, also disappointed, afraid, not knowing what to do or what comes next?  On a pedestal one minute, then had the rug pulled out, not knowing how bad the fall is going to be?  Who hasn’t been Lloyd Dobler – put it all out there, told the truth, gotten smashed?  Had the opportunity to be the one with the upper hand, and used it with love?  Who hasn’t been Jim Court, wanting to hold onto what you’ve got, while you’re losing everything, living in a prison of poor choices and grave mistakes, created out of sheer love, but turned wrong somewhere all because of wanting to protect someone we love?  Who hasn’t been looked up to, or the one looking up to them?  The one standing on the rug, or the one having the rug pulled out, hard and fast?  The one needing a hand, or the one extending it?  The mistake maker, or the one the mistake was made against?  Who hasn’t been all of them, in one lifetime, at one point or another?

I heard In Your Eyes a whole new way today too, the song Lloyd plays for Diane, yes the iconic  with John Cusack holding the boom box in the rain – there’s only a piece of it, here:  And if you haven’t watched the movie, DON’T WATCH THIS!!  Watch the movie first.  But if you’ve seen it, it’s a nice little recap.  And you get to hear the song.  I like what it says, we’re all complete.  Not YOU COMPLETE ME.  But we are all complete in each other’s eyes.  Especially the eyes of those we love.

Watching this movie again after so many years of experiences…I have a new perspective.  And it’s just as wonderful as my perspective when I saw it the first time.  It’s one of hope.  With a lifetime of education.  It’s waking up not knowing every day, but working with what I’ve got, flying, Like Diane, into the future, with people around and behind me, each a Lloyd Dobler, who is turning it UP past the red line.  We all are each of the characters, looking up, in anticipation, waiting for it, waiting for it…

DING.

 

Hello AGAIN and Happy Friday the 13th!!

Today is the day to share some amazing news that the Traveling Psychic Supper Club has been working on for the past year.

I guess the best place to start is kind of what is the beginning.  I hope you’ll stay with me…and if you Started with me, I hope you’ll add anything I’ve forgotten!

It all kind of started with this Event, which brings me full circle today – This was my first event with the Driskill hotel, which I had always seen as a PINNACLE.  I wanted to do something there, but wasn’t sure if I should, like it was too soon after starting the supper club which had just begun in July.  But Lacey was there and said, why not?  WHY NOT THIS YEAR?

So I went with it.

Then I went to a marketing/PR meeting because I kinda suck at that stuff – where I met Dave Mazner of  http://www.meetup.com/PRoverCoffee-Austin/ here in Austin, I told him what I did and he told me to contact

http://austin.culturemap.com/  that they would love what I do and be into the Supper Club.  I did the next day and Michael Graupmann wrote this amazing article.  Which would be instrumental in my/our future and I didn’t even know it.   The Driskill dinners were a huge success and I now work closely with the Driskill on public and private dinners.  I’m having one tonight, in fact!  What better night than Friday the 13th?

So  around Thanksgiving I wrote this:

http://travelingpsychicsupperclub.com/2012/11/24/making-it-happen-chopped-and-motor-coaches/

This is how fast things happen if you let them.

I wrote that post on November 24, 2012.

On December 5, 2012 I got a phone call from a director named David Sauvage .  He had been commissioned to create a pitch about a show about psychics and food by a major Cable Network.  This is David.  He’s awesome!

David and his Production Partner Andrew Bly flew out to meet us for a dinner.  It was at the Driskill.  It was amazing.  David and Andrew were both “one of us”.  Some stuff happened, then we had a tiny setback that wasn’t a setback at all, just a blip and we moved forward.  Someone amazing stepped forward and we were back on track.  We made a plan to start the ball rolling on a production reel and they came out and filmed it in April.  I wrote about it here: http://travelingpsychicsupperclub.com/2013/05/14/psychic-tv-behind-the-scenes-aprils-dinner-at-moonshine/

Then they left, we kept in touch, some stuff happened, Summer happened. The footage was edited and shown to some people – but a lot of them didn’t get it.  So we kept working (David, Andrew and their guys – they kept working.)  We kept having dinners, doing readings, swimming, enjoying our kids/families/LIFE and this amazing wonderful summer of 2013.

Somewhere in there, I got a radio show with an AMAZING online Paranormal Radio community called www.paramaniaradio.com.  Thank you very much to very talented astrologer and Supper Club member Donna Woodwell for making that connection!

During this time, I was still talking to David, and our conversations became much more frequent.  We ended up collaborating on a regular basis, he would say this is what I have – this is where we are, and we would talk and I would channel and we would decifer the information that came in.  And we would go in the direction we were led.  And a very clear direction emerged.  The individual with the right energy emerged so we moved towards that.

Then Susan, Lacey and I went to Boston.  I wrote about that here: https://ifyoucouldseewhatihear.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/so-im-baaaaccckkkk/

We did a radio show from there which was fun.  You can listen to that here:http://paramaniaradio.com/extras/ondemand.php?ondemanddir=Traveling%20Psychic%20Supper%20Club&getfile=Traveling%20Psychic%20Supper%20Club%20-%20Lacey%20Givins%20and%20Susan%20Eischhorn%2020130725.mp3

Our trip to Boston really created a whole new level of energy, even though it involved only Lacey, Susan and myself, it solidified something for all of us.  It was a tipping point and the GAME WAS ON.  By going to Boston, we had, as David says, Put our stake in the ground.

While we were in Boston I had lots of phone calls with David, conversations with Kelly, Lacey and Susan.  Kirby pretty much chills and we fill him in later.  That’s just how Kirby rolls.  He grounds us.  He’s rad.

We were getting offers to partner from some different production companies but the fits weren’t there.  None of they were who I had seen.  I held off on dropping the hammer, and David agreed.  This partnership has been amazing, and correct.  BUT We weren’t there yet.  And these were amazing companies, each and every one.  But it wasn’t right yet.  The correct Tetris blocks hadn’t fallen yet.  The right block would fall right from the top, didn’t need to be twisted or turned, and it would be perfect.

Then it fell.  The right person got it.  And not just got it, but GOT IT.  The right block appeared and fell into place.

So if you’ve stuck with me this far here is the announcement:

I am proud to announce that the Traveling Psychic Supper Club is partnering with the Weinstein Company to create our TV Show.   Some stuff needs to happen between now and then, but it will, and I’ll be heading to New York to pitch the show to networks alongside my Director, Collaborator and Friend, David Sauvage and Harvey Weinstein, who I have yet to meet, but am already excited to connect to this amazing ball of energy.  Things are coming together, and we are here to do the work.  I hope you’ll visit back to see the progress on the project, which I am excited to now openly share.  There is so much energy behind this, and I appreciate the energy that the group, David and Andrew and everyone associated with them – Josh, Alexi, my Hernandez family that I come from, my immediate family – Jim, Pic and Elena, my TPSC Family here in Austin, my extended family at Paramania Radio, and my psychic family that is only growing all over the country.  Everyone who has worked with us on this side, AND the other, Adam and Paige – Love to all you guys.   This is only growing and getting better.

There is work to be done.  I’m here to make things happen, and I don’t mess around.  Thank you to everyone who is behind me and the Traveling Psychic Supper Club.

Perfect timing:  3:33pm

This is how I feel right now.  Can’t Hold Us.  SO many things about this song speak to me on so many levels.  And it’s just wicked fun, when I hear it I move.  My city’s behind me.  And anyone who knows me knows I’m like when you give a little speed to a Great White Shark on Shark Week.  Macklemore’s flag says The Heist.  Mine’s just got an EYE.

Thanks everybody and have an amazing weekend.  Love to you all, Love from Texas

Hello again and hope all is well. I’m led today to talk about positive connections – seeing them, making them, and appreciating them – to keep bringing them to yourself, your work and your life.

The Traveling Psychic Supper Club and I are all about connections. We love sharing new ones with new members, seeing who fits in with who where, what experiences we have shared that are similar, and where we are going together. Everyone has their own special connections within the group. Like a ripple effect on a pond there are those of us in the inner circle, those that are on the outer edges of the circle, then those of us that have come in then out, but that are always welcome, whenever they can make it. I’m meeting people all of the time that are moving int “the new energy” of making positive connections, and letting go of old ones that no longer serve them. It’s an exciting place to be. Here’s what I’m talking about.

I’m meeting more and more people who are outright, with no excuses and no fear living their passions. Taking steps off of cliffs into the unknown, feeling the rush of the wind and knowing – EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OK. No matter what. I’m trusting. I’m KNOWING. I’m EXPERIENCING and I AM SAFE. I’m taking care of myself, because I am feeding myself and my soul. And in turn, feeding others and their souls. In this way, if you can see that you are always safe, there is no unknown. Even the things that come into your life that are…hmm, shall I say unexpected, or a sudden event or even a tragedy – depending on how you see it, are a part of your path and the journey.

I’ve had some people ask me lately, but what about me? Everyone at my job is so negative, or my family – they just don’t get me, or this or that or whatever else is keeping me from being happy…what about me? In my work with kids, it is so much easier to see people for who they really are. Can you see anyone who makes you feel uncomfortable as…a kid? Can you see the things around THEM that make them unhappy? I’ve been working on a bullying presentation that I’m going to be giving at our District Conference next month. I’ve been looking at the difficulty of Bullying, while addressing issues of FEAR and LOVE. When someone is agitating you, or you out right just can’t stand them or their ways, are you looking at them through FEAR or LOVE? Can you see the child they are, and what could be agitating them? Can you take a walk in their shoes in other words? You may see that their shoes are way too tight, rubbing over and over creating blisters and pain. Maybe their parents can’t afford new shoes, so they have to wear these uncomfortable ones. Or maybe they have holes on the bottom, which cause them embarrassment or shame.

Can you really take a good look at those shoes?

They may fit perfectly fine, but not the BRAND that kid wanted, which causes resentment and again, shame, nothing is ever right. Can you see those shoes and all the external judgement that child feels from them? Now can you see the kid IN those shoes? When your feet hurt, you can’t focus on anything else. Maybe that’s what’s “wrong” with those people who agitate you. Maybe they have so many “wrongs” going on in their life, they can’t see past it. And when you walk up in BARE FEET, talking about how great everything is… When someone is living in pain, or fear, they don’t want to hear about how great your life is, and how you are living your passion. But instead of getting angry at that person, remember their shoes, and love them, right there for who they are. It may be that love that gives them an opportunity not to be angry or judge you, but look down at their shoes and think about how they can be happy too. Everyone rubs off on someone else. Everyone plants a seed somewhere. If you are living in the flow of life, and living your passion today, stepping off cliffs, keep doing it, someone is watching you and may just take your que to take off those ratty old shoes and do the same thing.

So Kirby wrote me this comment on my last post and my answer kind of turned into a post itself, so here it is – and thanks Kirby for the opportunity to look at this a little closer…

I want to try and comment.  First part about transition and how the kids are handling it well and even with added pressure from both of them advancing into middle and high schools you say that this time always has to be rocky for me.  Why?  Not attempting to go all deep on you but why?  Do you make it tough or you history says that it will be tough?

The last section of the post, from how I read it, seemed to have a sense of urgency or . . . high level of need.  That may not have been your intentions when writing, regardless, I still think that a simple “slow down for a second” or “take a chill pill” would work.  Does it need to be rushed?

hmm, I will pause for a second to see what the answer is about why this time is rocky, and I’ll try not to go all deep on ya either..  I think it has to do with what I think of as the shaking of the snow globe.

I’m all settled into this current way of life, just for now, all the glitter (or snow…ha ha the idea of a bunch of glitter all over my stuff is funny to me…not really a “glitter girl”..) then it gets all shaken up again.  I think it’s the up in the air-ed-ness (so not a word, but what’cha gonna do about it) is the unsettled part for me.  Also, because I don’t want to let anybody down with what I have to offer for summer (and yes, on the larger scale as well – since I know you’re going to call me out on that as well…!).

Here’s what I mean – I want to provide my kids with lots of stuff to do, but also want them to have chill time.  Like, in the right amounts of both.  So I want them to have a rad summer, and from year to year that changes, ya know, as they get older.  So I guess I have some fear that I won’t have the balance right for everyone involved.  I don’t want to disappoint anyone.  That is a big issue for me, keeping a balance and not letting anyone down, or disappoint – I’m the cruise director, basically.  Or if you look at it another way, controlling.  And the funny thing is, I’ve gotten way more chill over the past 10 years, taking more of a facilitator role than a controller roll.  But the fear is still there, that people will be disappointed with what I provide.  It’s one of the reasons I’m making this – all of this – connections through the blog, the dinners, readings, and finally classes or courses for others a much bigger part of my life.  On one hand, it feeds me, but on the other, I know whatever is being provided is perfect, because it’s not me.  I’m a channel, again a facilitator, but it’s not me.  And what it is is perfect, and where it comes from is phenomenal.  And I trust that wholeheartedly.   It’s like when ya know, you know.  And this – I know.

And to address the second part – yes I know, I need to take a chill pill.  It’s not a sense of urgency, it’s just this place where I get when I’m being flooded or overwhelmed, I become scattered and spacey, feel like some things will slip through if I don’t juggle just the right way.  And I’ve had other lessons coming up at the same time, like sidebars.  Awesome!  Just what I need, sidebars!  But actually I’m working on becoming more organized so this will get better.  I’m also clearing things out of my life that aren’t serving me, my family, my home, etc.  I’m streamlining.  I appreciate you bringing this to my attention.  For all things a season.  Just for me, I rarely am able to see what my seasons are for myself, some of the frustrations of being a SEE-ER, when turned in my eye is blind.

This has been on my mind a lot lately, additional intensifying encounters have shoved it to the forefront of my thoughts…I am going to try to stay focused, but I have so many thoughts running through my head pushing each other out of the way, we’ll see what happens.

I have begun to have the experience lately of making connections while reading.  I receive a lot when reading, like my mind is working parallel-ly.  I don’t think that’s a word, but that’s what it’s doing.  It’s like my thoughts are moving around and I’ve learned to just let them, then within 20 minutes I’ll read something in the book that “validates” my thoughts, and solidifies them and confirms them. I feel I need to insert an example here.  Because it sounds like I’m talking about what’s going on in the book, but it’s not.  This is when I first made the connection – I had an overwhelming feeling that someone in my life that I am connected to spiritually but not physically had died.  In a short amount of time (within a few hours in the morning)  I had a few different indications and “pings” that kept telling me this was true.  So I told myself that if someone in the book died in the next few pages, then my thoughts would be confirmed.  And I almost thought that as a joke because the book I was reading was an autobiography and there wasn’t any chance at all of anyone dying in it.  I actually thought, ha ha, that’s not going to happen, almost tauntingly.  But after having the thought, and dismissing it as silly, on the next page a completely peripheral character that had only been mentioned once in the beginning of the book died.  It takes a lot to freak me out, but that did it.  It was so specific, the timing was exact.  I couldn’t deny it, or the feeling that reading those words brought up for me initially, followed by indescribable feelings of love, calm and peace.  I don’t even have a way to find out if this person had died, and it doesn’t matter.  I know,  I was shown, and it’s ok.  I’ve learned that sometimes you get answers without getting all the details and that’s ok.  It has to be ok.

This new occurrence of receiving while reading is funny because to read I actually have to sit down for a little bit and that’s hard for me.  But, this has become a valid tool for me, so I acknowledge it and accept it.  So that brings me to today’s topic at hand – the dark night of the soul.  Actually, it seems my son wants french toast, so this post will have to be continued.  But this is the beginning of understanding my duality, something I’ve had on my mind so much lately, why it is that I work in the light, but am drawn to the dark.  I’ve been given a key – through words in the pages of a book.

I’ve been given lots of keys lately, through books, people, relationships, conversations.  Things are clicking, cogs turning.  I feel like an animal running on all fours, gaining speed.  Actually, that’s a recurring dream I sometimes have – I’m an animal running, feeling like I’m grabbing at the ground and pushing it away as I run to gain momentum.  The feeling that comes with it is wild, free, gaining and expanding.  I love it when I feel that way in real life.  It feeds me.

Here’s to hoping you are feeling fed today.  Time for french toast.

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